قل لي من تصاحب، أقول لك من أنت

فن التلاعب بالكلمات مع شوية زناخة....
الاول للثاني يا مان : قل لي من تصاحب، أقول لك من أنت
الثاني للاول: من تصاحب
الاول: من انت

و شكراً

Its CHRISTMAS

its such a nice season, I enjoy every part of it!
any ways that's not why I'm blogging, basically I hate it when everybody types Merry Xmass...
its wrong, its CHRISTMAS which is CHRIST+MASS
we all know who Jesus Christ is and Mass/Mas/Masse is a church celebration or just a celebration so we are celebrating Christ, by using X instead of Christ you are celebrating X which is not Christ, don't do abbreviations to save time, because by using X you are taking out the main element in Christmas which is the Christ.....

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!

If for one moment I start talking about people her and about their qualities you will come and shut me up because I won't shut up, people's kindness, HONESTY, and sweetness here kills......
even when it comes to taxi drivers, they are amazing, a taxi driver drove me 2 times to where I live, the next time he saw me he honked his horn and told me he's going my direction if I wanted a lift.... ain't that sweet!!!
I don't think I can ever leave this place on earth, its almost heaven, it just has extra people that need to be evacuated and it'll be heaven...

من بعض ما أرى وأسمع

عابر سبيل كان، وأصبح صديق عريق ولربما صديق قديم.سجن مرات عدة، وكان ما يلبث أن يفرج عنه إلا وأن يعاود و يعود، أجمل أيام حياته قاضاها في السجن، هذا ما قاله لي، كان يحزن حينما يفرج عنه ويحن للزنزانة، كان يخرج ليطمئن على عائلته، ولكن حبه للزنزانة طغى الى حبه لعائلته، أو بالأحرى حبه لوطنه كان الفاعل في جملة حياته.
ذهبت لأزوره في منزله، ولفتت انتباهي جملةٌ معلقةٌ على حائط غرفة الجلوس، فضولي طلب مني معرفة

قصة هذه الجملة، فقال لي:هذه الجملة رافقتني في كل زنزانة دخلتها، رافقتني، وعزتني، كانت رفيقة دربي

سأصبر حتى يعجز الصبر عن صبري

واصبر حتى يأذن الله في أمري

واصبر حتى يعلم الصبر انني صابر على

شيء أمر من الصبر

I did it.....

3 months a go I applied for a visa to go to Palestine in order to participate in the Palestine Youth Orchestra workshop that was held there, unfortunately the Israeli embassy didn't issue the visa until a month and a half ago and yes I missed the workshop, so I got the visa I graduated from university and I went to Palestine on the 16th of August 2008 thinking I will never get the visa again so why not seize the moment and go visit.... I did it...

My dad almost cried on the phone when i told him I am going to Palestine, his home town to take a trip to visit his childhood, and to see what Palestine is all about, he begged me not to go there but that was when I said my first NO, I fought for what I wanted and yes I did it....
it really hurt me just to know that he remembers where he lived in small little details, he knew the names of the streets the color of the walls, the names of their neighbors, he remembers every single detail and he left it when he was just a kid...

The reality shocked me, I got there still in denial not believing that I am there, I loved it, I can finally say I am from Palestinian origins, I walked down the streets and I met people I know who still cant believe I entered, I pray for every person on the face of earth that one day they get the chance to see its glory, I walked in its streets, inhaled it essence, tasted its flavor... I did it

Its been a month now and I still can't believe that I did it, I saw it all, and I felt it all, the Churches and the Mosques the streets and the walls are live proof of a presence of a greater force, no words I can think of describe my feelings nor what I saw... I saw it all .... I did it

I am still here... I found my Jerusalem... I found my lost city... I found me.... I am not leaving..... I DID IT...

a Question on my mind....

Its such a weird thing when I descover something new in me, I recently found out that I am one of the most random thinking people on the face of earth I ever met..... I was sitting the other day watching a movie I guess untill I found me thinking out loud saying this sentence: "if you found some one working you ask do you need a hand?? why wouldnt you say something to a person walking like would you need a leg??"
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end of thinking..... beginning of NOTHING..... SILENCE

Oh! Your daughter speaks English?? My niece speaks ARABIC!!!!

My sister was out of town a while ago so I had to baby sit Yasmin a 4 year old and Faris a 2 year old, and as their nice and of course COOL auntie Hindo I had to take them on outings and spend some fun quality time with them!!!!
NEVER MIND........... during that month when my sister was out of town Yasmin had a birthday invitation!!! YAAAAYYYYYYY she was so happy.......
YASMIN: "please Hindo take me I will be very nice I promise ou baw3idek ino ba7ki bil3arabi 3ashan inti you dont understand English for 3 days in a row!!!!"
ME: "ok thats a deal missy ou ana baw3idek ino i'll start learning English..."

I really hate how kids these days tend to speak only in English and a year or so after they end up with a crappy Arabic language command!!!!!

a week after this conversation its the birthdayyy!!! well I we went and of course I have to stay with her, sitting with kids moms (the GOLDEN LADIES a name i gave them) that speak only English, talk about shoes, fashion, etiquette and all this crap that does not interest me even if I was paid to be interested in!!!

ANY WAAYYYYY, one of the girls came to her MOMMY and was like "Mommy, that little boy over there is not sharing the slide with every one, its annoying." the MOMMY said: "even though my daughter is 4 she has perfect English, Arabic si3eb 3aleiha hala2 7aramm..."
I was so pissed but that was all at the same time when Yasmin came in.......drum roll......I was thinking of please ARABIC ARABIC YASMINE I7KI 3ARAAABIII..............."khalto Hindo, fee majal teeeji takhdeeni arooo7 a3mal rasem 3al wijeh ya3ni face painting ou t2ooli lal painter bidi farasheh ya3ni butter fly??" I was like YIS3ED RABBBBEKK, so I turned to the MOMMY and told her: " wow thats so great, same here even though Yasmin is 4 she has perfect Arabic she's not allowed to use English with me because Arabic better, English is too easy for her and thats 7aram."
gosh I wanted to kick that lady so hard, laykoon il wa7ad ili bi7ki 3arabi kundara!!!

Hind Vs. the Golden Ladies- MOMMY
1-0

Weird conversations abroad!!

I was in France recently, had a concert in Bellfort then I extended my trip to visit my uncle (mom's side), anyways, I have discovered he as well have the weird kind of questions such like the ones I have with mom!!
it was around 2 AM when I was sitting with the family watching TV playing cards, chatting, joking...family stuff ....etc so I decided its time to go to sleep, I headed down stairs to my room and I didnt sleep immediately, any ways very long story short, after 30 minutes or so my uncle cals me,
Khalo: HIINDDD
ME: aywaaa (yes)
Khalo: Nimtee??? (did you sleep yet??)
ME: ehhhhh, khaliini ashuuf!! ANDARI?? (eeehhh, let me check, no clue!!!)
Khalo: shlone ma 3am bifham?? (what, i dont understand)
ME: inta shu ra2yak? (what do you think)
*******SILENCE********

I find these conversations very weird, lack of common sense fills the air, but again common sense isnt always common as I may presume!!!

Stopping to Realize what's going on!

I dont concider this a post, its more of a reminder that I have reached this level.... I need an answer from the "idiots" who are doing this, I have written many blogs saying how much I want to LEAVE this place...... well now I have one more reason to add on my list!!! I CANT AFFORD LIVING HERE, damn I CANT AFFORD DYING as well!!!
this is too much for me, more than I can handle, damn it I have to play loads after I die as well....
why is this happening?? when and where is it going to end??
this brings me to my current state of mind.....
I dont believe in political jokes, I have seen so many get elected!

I can't see the END....

I don't think I will be able to stay here, honestly I do not want to sound cocky or arrogant or ANY OTHER THING. I can't take this crap any more, as much as I love Jordan as much as I can't wait to leave, the only thing that has made me survive all this bullshit was going out every once in a while but now I cant deal with just the "every once in a while" part it has to be ONCE AND FOR ALL, I have a concert in France this May, and one in Italy in October, these are acting as my "light in the end of the tunnel" but I know for sure when time comes to reach this light it will only be a train speeding toward me, slap me in the face, ask me to wake up and smell the coffee, I will never leave here, I am stuck in this crap hole forever..... I wonder till when....... I am independent, I have been working for the past 4 years, I will graduate this semester, I travel alone....etc but unfortunately my parents paid for my education (I really wanted to do that but our beloved "system" does not give us the chance to even try) so as my parents say they have total control over me, I am not allowed to leave here and go alone, I was shocked my parents aren't that type at all, they always gave me total freedom to do what ever I want......... I will leave here I promise and hell no I wont be married to do so, but when..... I just cant wait to see the end........

Works of Carlos Latuuf GAZA

Some times word can't express the inexpressible, thats where colors interfere.

Deep Thoughts

Have you ever had weird thoughts run through your head while sitting doing nothing, your brain generates the "automatic thinking switch" on, thoughts and questions come to your head jamming like a jazz band each member dying to play a solo, improvise and want to be heard...... Well lately I started writing these thoughts down, maybe one day they'll lead me to the center of the universe!!!!
I'll share some with you.....

• Why does your nose run, and your feet smell?
• Why do we press harder on remote control buttons when we know the battery is dead?
• If con is the opposite of pro, then is Congress the opposite of progress

some life's observations as well....

• Money can't buy happiness, but it sure makes misery easier to live with.
• I don't approve of political jokes. I've seen too many of them get elected.
• I feel like I'm diagonally parked in a parallel universe.
• Borrow money from a pessimist - they don't expect it back.

oh well this is whats coming to my mind, you might have heard some of them before maybe not, who knows, we all end up thinking the same some way or another!!!

P.S I intend to live forever - so far so good.

Again weird conversation...

I said I'll add more of me and mom's conversations this happened two days ago.

I was in my room 9 AM mom thought that I left "I guess", heading to the kitchen mom's sees me.....
MOM: lissatek hone???
Me: i7zariiii......
MOM: la2 ya3ni lissa ma ro7tiii???
Me: ahh walaaww ro7t, i3tibrini mish mawjudeh kamli shoghlek wala yhimek!!!
MOM: ma aznakhek!!!
Me: ya3ni hada so2al binsa2alll, ana lazem aroo7 BYE
MOM: Hind, tal3a??
Me: MA TI7KI.... khaaalaaassssss,
Mom: hehe I know how to drive you crazy don't I
Me: Mhhmmm

اعلان من معهد ادوارد سعيد الوطني للموسيقى

English Follows

يعلن معهد ادوارد سعيد الوطني للموسيقى

عن فتح باب تقديم طلبات الالتحاق في

للورشة التدريبية والعروض الموسيقية للعام 2008 الخاصة ب

أوركسترا فلسطين للشباب

بمشاركة أوركسترا ميوزيكوم كوليجيوم من ألمانيا

وبقيادة المايسترو والتر ميك

المخيم الموسيقي من 17 - 26 تموز 2008

يتبعه جولة عروض موسيقية من 27 تموز إلى 3 آب

في مدن: رام الله، القدس، الناصرة/ حيفا، عمان ودمشق

لمزيد من المعلومات الرجاء زيارة الموقع الإلكتروني:

http://ncm.birzeit.edu/pyo/Announcment.pdf

لتقديم الطلبات الرجاء زيارة الموقع الالكتروني: و

http://ncm.birzeit.edu/pyo

The Edward Said National Conservatory of Music

announces

that applications for the

Palestine Youth Orchestra 2008

in cooperation with members of the Collegium Musicale of the University of Bonn

under the leadership of German conductor Walter Mik

are now being accepted. To apply please go to: http://ncm.birzeit.edu/pyo

from 17^th – 26^th July Workshop In Birzeit /Palestine followed by a concert tour from July 27^th until August 3^rd

in cities including Ramallah, Jerusalem, Haifa/Nazareth, Amman and Damascus

for more Information,visit the following link:

http://ncm.birzeit.edu/pyo/Announcment.pdf

Till when ....

So we're having a bad weather, so what.... it suits me.... the problem is with our satellite, it decides to hibernate, and we end up watching Jordan TV.
I haven't watched JTV in a very long time, I found it EXACTLY the same, I couldn't believe it.... shu haaddd I didn't believe it, oh well this isn't mainly my problem, I was truly shocked, they stopped broadcasting at 1:30 A.M, they put that extremely old recording of the Jordanian National Anthem for 6 minutes or so, then it went teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetttttttt, ana smi3t il teeeet min hon ou kan fi 3a2l ou taar!!! KAIF YA3NI nothing changed in JTV since forever........
last time when it snowed the same thing happened, but it was another case, it was a god damned FRIDAY, I had to watch yimza3 saba7ak....... same studio same decor....... same...same...blah blah blah, and not to mention that the picture went faster than the sound, all the people that were hosted on that show looked extremely funny for me..... il soat bsha2a will soora bsha2a..... anyways, the only thing I'm capable of saying is till when, I'm usually proud of Jordan in many aspects but unfortunately JTV is not even close to any of them!!!!

My Driving observations...

I have only been driving for 4 years now, and even though what you're about to read isn't taught in driving schools but I have noticed that many drivers agree to these "rules" in driving:

Turn signals will give away your next move. Drivers never use them (they rather surprise you by turning right or left DO NOT UNDER ESTIMATE THEM). Use of them in the round-about and intersections may be illegal.

Under no circumstances should you leave a safe distance between you and the car in front of you, or the space will be filled in by somebody else putting you in an even more dangerous situation.

Crossing two or more lanes in a single lane-change is considered "going with the flow."

The faster you drive through a red light, the smaller the chance you have of getting hit, or caught by surveillance cameras.

Never get in the way of an older car that needs extensive bodywork. (you might not like what MIGHT happen)

Braking is to be done as hard and late as possible to ensure that your ABS kicks in, giving a nice, relaxing foot massage as the brake pedal pulsates. For those of you without ABS, it's a chance to stretch your legs.

Never pass on the left when you can pass on the right.

Speed limits are arbitrary figures, given only as suggestions, and are apparently not enforceable during rush hour.

Always slow down and rubberneck when you see an accident, or even if someone is just changing a tire. (Oh someone is in trouble lets SLOW DOWN and just WATCH, people behind us will do the same I don't think we'll be blocking the way!!!)

Throwing litter on the roads adds color to the landscape and gives Adopt-a-Highway crews something to clean up.

It is assumed that police cars passing at high speed may be followed in the event you need to make up a few minutes on your way to work, or lunch break.

Heavy snow, ice, fog, and rain are no reasons to change any of the previously listed rules. (These weather conditions are God's way of ensuring a natural selection process for body shops, junkyards, and new vehicle sales).

I just dont get it....

well this happens to me nearly every day, as much as it has a weird sense of sarcasm in it as much as I just don't get it..... mainly its between me and mom, and each time with each coming day its the SAME thing sometimes new and different comments as well!

it goes as the following scenario(s):

No.1
Me: (just walked in to the house for lunch, sitting down watching T.V)
Mom: (calls on the LAND LINE)
Me: alo?
Mom: Hii Hind
Me: Hala yamma ??
Mom: WEINEKK HALA2??
Me: (SHOCKED) bat5ayal inek 7aketi 3al beit fa wein momken akoon bil ma3had??

the same exact conversation but a twist in the end:

No.2
Me: (just walked in to the house for lunch, sitting down watching T.V)
Mom: (calls on the LAND LINE)
Me: alo?
Mom: Hii Hind
Me: Hala yamma ??
Mom: INTI BILBEIT??
Me: (SHOCKED) momken, zay mabiddek, inty sho bit2oooli??? ana 7assseh ino ana fil beit!!!

No.3
this time no phone calls

I just walked into the house while mom is watching T.V

ME: Hi mama
Mom: Ijeeeti??
Me: I guess, I am standing here aren't I??


More to come soon...

Is there anybody out there???

Oh well, I decided to come back, I never decided to quit in the first place...a fellow blogger made me think of doing this again... the thing is I really enjoy writing, I really do, I used to be very good at it, but somewhere in the middle between school, university and my life I lost my talent, whenever I feel the need to write something I cant find the words to describe my state of mind or what i think, its as if I suffer from a lack of vocabulary syndrome the moment I see a keyboard.. I can no longer THINK...

So in order to catch up of what was going on during the last period of my funny full- of- action life, I'll write in brief.....
in July I passed my third year in university with a 3.5 GPA so it was extremely rewarding for me and I was so excited about starting my senior year soon.

in August I traveled with the Palestine Youth Orchestra (PYO) to GERMANY a country where I always wanted to go, I spent 12 great days, we played Dvorák's 3rd Symphony, Wedding Sketches by Salvador Arnita, Longa To Marcell and Manfa for Issa Boulos. it was a success.

In September we (the Jordanian Music Ensemble) had a concert to represent Jordan in the Neurological Surgeons Convention that took place there in San Diego, California. and since then UNFORTUNATELY I haven't even visited the airport, this is the longest period i spend in Amman since 2003 (almost 5 months....too much)

October...till NOW
nothing much has happened:
few good concerts with the Amman Symphony Orchestra (ASO)
I've been losing weight and living healthy,
FINISHED MY FIRST SEMESTER IN MY SENIOR YEAR

I'm so excited about this semester, I will finally GRADUATE.... you are all invited... I have been preparing for my graduation project for almost a year and i am so excited about it, I am going to play Arutunian Trumpet Concerto on my graduation, but for the listening jury I haven't decided yet maybe Hummel Trumpet Concerto, not sure though.
one more thing that will be going on this semester is that I'm back to work at the Amman Baptist School, I've been working there in the music department for the past 3 years but took a break last semester to focus on practicing and supposedly write LESSON PLANS for this semester.... I HATE LESSON PLANS, the teacher responsible for our work and "internship" is leaving till august and me and my friend are doing ALL of her work! its so exciting yet scary we've been with her for the past 13 years and i always found it amazing how she is 5 people in 1.... thinking of it scares the crap out of me! oh well its a new challenge in my life..... all to discover what I want.... and what I am